Post by Lily on Aug 20, 2005 21:38:46 GMT -5
This is something I whipped up after an old memory being brought up... I think it counts as Emo...
My Broken Heart
I put my mind and my heart
To the test
Because your memory
Is only second best
Feeling more empty
Than I ever have before
After feeling so full
And not needing anything more
I try to stop from hurting
But it only makes it worse
The pain keeps increasing
As my heart that hurts
There’s an aching
That I won’t admit to
But only I know
That it hurts from missing you
And I try to keep the tears at bay
My face begins to turn red
I’m stuck with emotional delay
Just let me cry
Everyone wants to know
“What’s wrong, girl?”
The tears start to flow
I tell them
“Nothing”
Alone in my room
Trying to pick up the shattered pieces
Of my broken emotional gloom
I can’t think straight
Ride my bike down a trail
Yes, I remember now
Walking this with you
We laughed and how
I still see your face,
It’s as if I’m in a dream
Or reliving life,
That’s more how it seems
“Remember the good times”
Everyone says it’ll help
I write it all down
And put the paper on my shelf.
All of my thoughts next to the picture
Of me and your memory
My vision’s getting blurry now
It’s so bad I can’t see
Now I’m laying on my bed
Trying so hard to keep myself still
I’m running out of strength
And already out of will
The months pass almost like nothing
But only on a few days
The rest seems like forever, years
Now there’s only one way
I have to wait it out
I’m scared I’ll do something stupid
Then find out who cares
There’s three I know of now
But all so far
They can’t reach
And I fear I’m not up to par
Maybe I should’ve listened
When they said not to get attached
Maybe I could’ve stopped this hurt
But I’d’ve never last’d
Heart keeps growing heavy
And my mind can’t hold it in anymore
My brain just can’t take
Anymore of this
I’ll just have to break
I’ll sit here sobbing
And no one knows I’m here
I’m all alone in this house
That’s the one thing I fear
My heart is full of hurt
Though I try to hide it all
With good news
Sometimes faking the call
Things happen and I try to use them
To make me happy
But it’ll never last
And my ‘friends’ call me sappy
It’s when I’m desperate for someone to know
And when I need them to hear
Or just leave me and go
But the times when I just need to be miserable
Only seem to come more
And I can’t help but think
I’m an attention whore
My body drops to the floor
I’m only a half lifeless form now
Still breathing
And not wishing to go
I’m staying on Earth, no worries at that.
Pages and pages beyond my reach
The pen is only inches away
But this block, I’m stuck beneath
If only, if only
If only I could get these feelings down on paper
Maybe I wouldn’t hurt so much
Maybe I’d stop missing her
But my mind knows it’s not true
And I stop reaching for the answer
Because I already knew
I’m stuck thinking about everything
Not being able to get my mind off of you
I guess I’ll just wait for time to heal
As it always promises to
But I can’t get back the feel
Of wondering, of knowing
It’ll be okay
I’ve done so much wrong
I guess this is repay
For everything I’ve done in life
But why do I blame me for this?
These feelings that won’t subside
Until I let them all know
And tell everyone that I lied
That I’m not okay.
My heart feels so empty
And they don’t understand anyway
But I just keep drowning
In my rain
The rain from my eyes
Because I won’t cry
On my cheek nothing dries
Hold me back from jumping
Or don’t
I can hold myself
There’s just this feeling I won’t
And then I calm me
I go to sleep
And hope for something new
Because in the morning I know I will weep
And not even you
Who kept me together
When I was apart can mend this
My broken heart
My Broken Heart
I put my mind and my heart
To the test
Because your memory
Is only second best
Feeling more empty
Than I ever have before
After feeling so full
And not needing anything more
I try to stop from hurting
But it only makes it worse
The pain keeps increasing
As my heart that hurts
There’s an aching
That I won’t admit to
But only I know
That it hurts from missing you
And I try to keep the tears at bay
My face begins to turn red
I’m stuck with emotional delay
Just let me cry
Everyone wants to know
“What’s wrong, girl?”
The tears start to flow
I tell them
“Nothing”
Alone in my room
Trying to pick up the shattered pieces
Of my broken emotional gloom
I can’t think straight
Ride my bike down a trail
Yes, I remember now
Walking this with you
We laughed and how
I still see your face,
It’s as if I’m in a dream
Or reliving life,
That’s more how it seems
“Remember the good times”
Everyone says it’ll help
I write it all down
And put the paper on my shelf.
All of my thoughts next to the picture
Of me and your memory
My vision’s getting blurry now
It’s so bad I can’t see
Now I’m laying on my bed
Trying so hard to keep myself still
I’m running out of strength
And already out of will
The months pass almost like nothing
But only on a few days
The rest seems like forever, years
Now there’s only one way
I have to wait it out
I’m scared I’ll do something stupid
Then find out who cares
There’s three I know of now
But all so far
They can’t reach
And I fear I’m not up to par
Maybe I should’ve listened
When they said not to get attached
Maybe I could’ve stopped this hurt
But I’d’ve never last’d
Heart keeps growing heavy
And my mind can’t hold it in anymore
My brain just can’t take
Anymore of this
I’ll just have to break
I’ll sit here sobbing
And no one knows I’m here
I’m all alone in this house
That’s the one thing I fear
My heart is full of hurt
Though I try to hide it all
With good news
Sometimes faking the call
Things happen and I try to use them
To make me happy
But it’ll never last
And my ‘friends’ call me sappy
It’s when I’m desperate for someone to know
And when I need them to hear
Or just leave me and go
But the times when I just need to be miserable
Only seem to come more
And I can’t help but think
I’m an attention whore
My body drops to the floor
I’m only a half lifeless form now
Still breathing
And not wishing to go
I’m staying on Earth, no worries at that.
Pages and pages beyond my reach
The pen is only inches away
But this block, I’m stuck beneath
If only, if only
If only I could get these feelings down on paper
Maybe I wouldn’t hurt so much
Maybe I’d stop missing her
But my mind knows it’s not true
And I stop reaching for the answer
Because I already knew
I’m stuck thinking about everything
Not being able to get my mind off of you
I guess I’ll just wait for time to heal
As it always promises to
But I can’t get back the feel
Of wondering, of knowing
It’ll be okay
I’ve done so much wrong
I guess this is repay
For everything I’ve done in life
But why do I blame me for this?
These feelings that won’t subside
Until I let them all know
And tell everyone that I lied
That I’m not okay.
My heart feels so empty
And they don’t understand anyway
But I just keep drowning
In my rain
The rain from my eyes
Because I won’t cry
On my cheek nothing dries
Hold me back from jumping
Or don’t
I can hold myself
There’s just this feeling I won’t
And then I calm me
I go to sleep
And hope for something new
Because in the morning I know I will weep
And not even you
Who kept me together
When I was apart can mend this
My broken heart