|
|
Post by Lily on Aug 21, 2005 0:15:05 GMT -5
I wrote this one in summerschool...
School Da(y)ze
School Daze
I'll take the time
To write my words
Watch them go, fly away
Like little birds
Stuck in this prison
Screaming out loud
But no one will listen
I guess it's all in my head
I guess I lied
There are people who hear me
People who've cried
They listen when I don't talk
But when they don't know
When to listen
Because I try to hide it all
Problems I'll just keep listing
I won't let me be happy
And I just don't know why
I let everything go
And break down and cry
|
|
|
|
Post by Peanut on Aug 29, 2005 10:42:46 GMT -5
*hands tissue*
|
|
|
|
Post by Lily on Aug 29, 2005 17:04:53 GMT -5
*accepts* *hugs* Thanks Lise
|
|
|
|
Post by Peanut on Aug 30, 2005 10:51:20 GMT -5
*hugs back* you´re welcome
|
|
|
|
Post by Lily on Aug 30, 2005 17:18:36 GMT -5
Ah... I know why this is so depressing... I wrote this when I thought Cammie was dead... lol... You know... The London bombings... And Cammie being in Oxford... She had run out of minutes on her cell phone and everytime I tried to call it then phone was off... So... I, being pessimistic, assumed the worst and wrote a bunch of depressing things... lol... But she's alive and a lot of my songs and poetry are still depressing... but oh well... lol ^.^
|
|
|
|
Post by Peanut on Aug 31, 2005 3:54:36 GMT -5
I understand. I was afraid of that too. very.very. When I got a postcard from her and a e-mail from Kaylee I think my heart jumped around... I still thank god that she´s okay  |
|
|
|
Post by Lily on Aug 31, 2005 9:25:01 GMT -5
I got my post card from Cammie like two days after she got home... lol...
I thank the gods for her in general and I was absolutely hysterical when I saw the bombings on the news...
|
|
|
|
Post by Peanut on Aug 31, 2005 12:43:19 GMT -5
me too!
|
|
|
|
Post by Lily on Aug 31, 2005 17:05:15 GMT -5
My friends were holding onto my arms at school(I was in summerschool) because they thought if they let go I'd jump off a building... I wasn't about to kill myself... But I couldn't hear a word people around me were saying and I felt dizzy when I stood up and when I'd sit down, I'd start thinking about everything Cammie and I have been through and I couldn't stop crying. I thought I was going to go absolutely mad at the time...
|
|
|
|
Post by Peanut on Sept 1, 2005 12:24:53 GMT -5
I was not that bad, but when I heard I was numb all day.
Then I just went in denial, she can´t have died was all I thought.
My parents were always saying: well Oxford is like 50 km from London.
I was always thinking: what if she had gone shopping?
and went with a train? and sobbing silently to myself.
|
|
|
|
Post by Lily on Sept 1, 2005 22:17:57 GMT -5
I just shut myself out from the whole world when I couldn't get a hold of her...
Cammie was the first person to ever reach out to me when I had no one. She was the only one I could trust to just totally understand. And she trusted me on nothing. If I lost her... I... I don't know what would become of me...
I only wish I could've gone into denial at the time... But I'm more pessimistic... So I assumed the worst... -.-
|
|
